Justin found this diary and I thought he would be happy but it turned out miserable. In one way I totally understand where he's coming from but in another I don't.

He feels that I don't express myself about him and I to the extent of which I should. And you know, I don't. After reading through my past entries, I realize now how he feels. But I still wouldn't question the love that we have. I think he may be kind of questioning it. I know he loves me with all of his heart, he's proven that but I think he may be questioning how I feel.

I really don't know where to begin. He says that he wont accept if I put something in here about him now but right now, it doesn't matter. I'm doing what my heart is telling me to do. I know that even at that, it still wont make everything right but I'm not going to sit back and say nothing over the matter.

Justin makes me the happiest that I have ever been. I know it, everyone else knows it and even though he says that he doesn't think so, I believe he feels it. He is always comparing himself to my ex Tod, who doesn't even come close to comparing to someone like Justin. Justin is one of a kind. I feel like the luckiest person everyday since I've known him just because he is in my life and he chose to be with me everyday since the day we met. I feel that Justin is a once in a lifetime chance. And by everything I have, I am not going to let that chance slip through my fingers.

I can never explain my love for him well enough. There's no putting it into words. I could write a 1,000,000 page book and I still wouldn't be able to say how I feel correctly. Justin is the one for me, and I have always known it. Of course in the beginning I was scared to say it because I thought I would end up getting hurt but I know differently now. He's the one. I'm not just guessing, I know this for a fact. I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. No if's, and's or but's. If he asked me to marry him tomorrow, I wouldn't think twice. My answer would be yes. My answer will always be yes and it will never change.

I love you, Justin.

-n0fx