11:46pm // 04/14/01
It's so sad when you're so proud of a GED. I was proud of passing my GED. You know what passing my GED taught me and probably taught a lot of other people? You can easily get out of doing the right thing but still be accepted in society about doing the right thing. Sorry if that makes no sense but I understood it at least.

If I would have stuck to what I was doing in junior high (getting good grades and playing basketball) I would have been somewhere already. Not working in a daycare.

I love basketball. Then I found minor drugs (weed), with minor drugs comes hard drugs (crank), with minor and hard drugs guess what comes next if it hasn't already come. Alcohol. I haven't touched drugs in over a year but that doesn't make me any less of a drug addict. I still crave them sometimes but I fight the craving because I have a more important thing to worry about. My daughter.

My daughter. My daughter whom I love very much but would have been a happier baby if I would have waited.

Virginity. That's something I miss. I miss being pure. Anyone will agree, once you've had sex it's 10x easier to have it again. The first time I had sex I can truthfully say I was more or less forced. I didn't want to and I didn't enjoy it. I wouldn't say it was rape because I did not say no.

Tod, I love you more than anything.

-n0fx

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